The Beginning of a New Me

It was just a little over three years ago that everything began to change. I was working at a job that for me held no meaning. It was simply a job, a means of earning a paycheck and it was a struggle for me everyday. I knew that I needed to work, not only for the money I was bringing in to the household but also for a sense of worth. I have always believed that working, is good for you, it keeps you young, it keeps you active and it gives you a sense of worth. However, I realize now that, that particular job for me was demeaning. Granted I was treated very well at my job and I believe that I was respected for the work that I did, but because of the nature of the business and the rules they had, that particular job for me was taking away any sense of worth that I had had. I was unhappy at work and I believe it showed everywhere I went. Talk about negativity, they could have put my picture beside the word in the dictionary!
I was desperately looking for something, anything that was more in my line of work and expertise but I was so negative and down on myself giving every possible excuse I could think of why I wouldn't get a good job. Thank heaven for friends, because I had one that even though I was giving up on me, she kept encouraging me. When she saw the ad in the newspaper she brought it to me and said I simply had to apply because it was the perfect job. I had all the excuses why I shouldn't. I was going on holiday, I was too old etc. however after some persuasion I applied. I received an email shortly after sending in my resume and it turned out that interviews would not be taking place until after I returned from my holiday. I began to think of that as a positive omen and I wanted that job so badly I thought of nothing else for the next few weeks. I kept telling myself that I had nothing to worry about and the job was mine. I pictured myself in a nice office with sun shining in and friendly faces all about me. I didn't realize it at the time but the fact that I was picturing and envisioning what I wanted was in fact exactly what I later learned to be "The Secret". I did get that job, and  work in a nice office with friendly people. I have a beautiful picture window in my office where the sun streams in, and that job was the beginning of my journey to a brand new, exciting me!